What If?

Nostalgia is a strong emotion.

Once it grips you, it's really hard to stop thinking about it. Constantly, constantly, i wonder:

"What if?"

And not being able to get the answer, i'm unsatisfied. This bittersweet longing is, well, bittersweet. But there is nothing i can do.

I'll just have to wait it out.

Those Were The Days

I found you~

It's been, what, 8 years?
Except for that day where you saw me in MPH =)
I'm unable to recall what i did then, though.
But thanks to the wonders of the internet (and a bit of nostalgia + curiousity), i've been able to catch a glimpse of how you're doing.
It took awhile to find, since you don't go by your Chinese name anymore.
But i did, and you're doing great! You're sociable, musically talented and determined. Not to mention intelligent, a natural and forever young!
At least, that's what i've got from your song and posts =)


I didn't recognize you at first.
But from some of your other pictures, it was the face i definitely hung out with all those years back.
I wonder if you're still T.I.N.Y.
Even if you are, it doesn't matter.

Being tiny is the best thing you could be, right? =)

I can only remember bits and pieces...
I remember hanging out with you almost every recess, sharing Mamee Monster with you everyday.
I remember playing hide-and-seek with you in your dad's office after BM tuition.
I remember sitting in your parents car, and you telling me that the middle was the best place to sit, because if there were any car accidents from either side, i won't get squashed. Guess we really didn't know about inertia much then, haha.
I remember going to your house to hang out after school, watching tv and talking with you.
And i remember...
That's the past now.

I don't know if you remember me.
But i'm glad to see that you've grown.
And sad that i've lost touch with you.
Continue doing what you're doing.
You're awesome.

Summarization

Let me see where i can start this summary...(hey, that rhymes!)

• Melissa Soon got the Assistant To The President post for the Leo Club =)
• I got the Form 5 Representative spot along with Sarah.
• I didn't want the post of the president anymore, since I will be assisting Editorial in any way i can (yes, the club wasn't disbanded, just that they changed the name to Malay, so nobody understood it and thought that it was disbanded, thus applying for Leo Club instead).
• I've got TONS of homework to do, which seemingly sprung out of nowhere.
• We had our annual cross country run yesterday. 5 kilometers, up Bukit Utama, down and around.
• Running down was awesome, you could feel the wind whipping against your face and you feel like you're flying, on wings.
• Gotta do it again sometime, but just for fun, with friends =)
• Sadly, Green House came in last, with Yellow House leading. But we'll catch up. Hopefully.
• Had an unexplainable moment at youth today during worship. Almost magical.
• Been updating iTunes, since the computer has been reformatted. Slowly resurrecting it.
• The ship will be syncing soon.

Life is currently goooood.
Can't wait for Alpha.

My Life Is Average

It was 3 AM
and you woke me up...

Another week has gone by. I managed to get the Carta Organisasi done (the left side done very nicely, i must say), turned in all my homework on time and went to bed every night no later than 1 AM (except for today). Pretty constructive for a person like me, if i do say so myself.

Anyway, Camp Alpha 2010 is coming up soon! =) It will be during the March holidays, 3 days 2 nights, from Monday to Wednesday. We've decided a few things, but there's still lots of work to be done, so yeah, we're trying our best =) Do come! It's gonna be fun, as we are definitely gonna get a whole lot more of people this year.

School's been much of a bore. Since we basically didn't pay for anything last year, they're making us compensate by forking out oodles of cash THIS year. Money doesn't grow on trees, damn it. They also completely renovated the whole canteen, making the school food slightly more expensive (hey, we're paying for this every day okay?) and also inconsistent. Alright, it might be good to have variety, different foods on different days. But i guess i'm one of those people who prefer consistency and maintenance. Since i'm a perfectionist. But that trait is somewhat contradictory, since it makes me imperfect, doesn't it? Heh.

Anyway, i just have something that i want to say to a really awesome friend of mine here.

Thank you. Oh my gosh, i still can't believe you actually did that just to make sure i was alright. Seriously, i evaluate actions, since actions speak louder than words, and yours came through loud and clear, it practically screamed, or shouted. I don't know anybody else who would actually do what you did, who would stick to their instinct, who would stand by their stubbornness. You've gained a lot of my trust. And it's nice to know that someone cares THAT much.
Hopefully you'll be the best friend i've wanted all these years.

Makes me wonder if He sent you.

Rules

School has overgone some drastic changes this year. In the course of one week, various views of students about BU3 has changed to one common perception. School sucks. It's like a jail. They only let us off when it's at least 2.30 PM now instead of our usual 1.15 - 1.50 PM. There are NO benefits to this. None at all. We become even more tired, more stressed and the aging process increases as our youth is sucked out each day. Leading to a major decrease in endorphines. [*salutes*Major Decrease!] Oh what will we do without our endorphines. All is lost for good.

And on Wednesdays when there's co-curriculum activites, all the students face a lockdown, forced to eat within the school boundaries. Moreover, the only source where we can get food besides our parents is the canteen. A huuuge majority of students get their food there. Resulting in a major clash of forces, creating mass havoc and chaos. Sounds like something out of a Chemistry/Physics book now.

So today i wanted to buy a short-sleeved KRS top, as we're near to the equator. Heard from Teri that i could get it at Atria. Thanks Teri, you saved me a whole lot of trouble =) Anyway, i went there and sure, they had what i needed. While my mom and I were discussing if the use of this type of KRS shirt would be approved by Mr. Wong, the salesperson piped up and said this.

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Mr. Wong? BU3 is it?
Yeah? How do you know?
Oh, students mostly from BU3 have been coming in the whole day to buy stuff, cursing Mr. Wong in the process and leaving. *chuckles*

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Needless to say, i laughed too. Even in Atrium, where business was practically dead (oh my gosh i felt so much pity for them that i wanted to buy all their products, just to see the smiles on their faces), news about what Mr. Wong had done to BU3 had reached there. I was surprised.

But you know, i remain passive about all these changes. Alright, i'm a little disappointed about the strict rules they have enforced upon us this year, taking away the glory of our last high school days. But still, i'm not so flared up about it to move schools. I'm actually gonna do my best this year, be responsible, be active in clubs and such, instead of just attending and meekly sitting down, twiddling my thumbs and hope that they don't call on me to participate in anything.

Yesterday night, i stayed up until 1 AM, doing research on the club i'm gonna be in, the Leo Club. It's really interesting, because it leans more to charity work, for the benefit of others instead of just us. I really want to be the president of it this year. I'm not quite sure if i'm up to par, but i'm willing to try. Do things for a good cause, y' know? I'm actually taking the initiative to DO stuff. Make this year count.

It sounds like i'm biting off more than i can chew, since i'm already the AJK Keceriaan and also in charge of the NILAM for the class. What's more, this is SPM year. However, this is also my last year. After this, i'll never get a chance to go back again. Never gonna have this chance to lead a club, where i'm so comfortable at, with my friends. Do you know what LEO stands for? Yeah, it's not just a fancy name.

Leadership
Experience
Opportunity

LEADERSHIP, guys. I'm going to get the full EXPERIENCE. Can't let this OPPORTUNITY down. This is my chance. This is my year.

I'm gonna be a Leo.